Brightside of things

2009 to 2010

2010-01-01T10:12:00.000-05:00

yes I am wearing blue but I have to say...I am blue too.....not sure why.....lets break down the year many things to be thankful for yet so many memories too:

Jan: knee surgery, launched new lunch program Marisa got a boyfriend, Megan got a ticket lucky girl.

February-

March-spring break yes the realization I have no friends in the state of Michigan.....had a spring break pity party kids included....between budget and no bonus we stayed home lucky us. But thank the lord we had a job so we did not even want to bitch.

April-Easter always a good time for me being it is my birthday month. turned 41 woo-hoo still like life and want to continue to enjoy it. cold spring gray cloudy

May-warming up loving baseball seeing all my friend one child working one not Jordan baseball baseball baseball. Megan break her arm playing soccer.

June- gets a second ticket wreaks her car and has to have a echo cardio gram due to a heart mummer.

school ends thankthe lord. jj wins city champs, Michael Jackson dies (same day) all stars begin. Jordan has a birthday party for 12 boys no sleep over thank the lord

July- still have work to do at school. gearing up for all-star baseball only to lose with Jordan striking out at the plate....as a mother it was one my hardest things to witness yet the best lesson in life we can't always win and sometimes you are the one to make the team lose. still don't think Joe and talk about this with out choking up.

Aug-school will begin and I get to go see my very best friend in nc. we have a great trip the girls and I go down alone girls road trip...one of my best memories of summer.....I still crack up when I think of the conversations in the car.....I love my girls. Jordan break up with girl friend and misses her even though he was the one doing the breaking he was sad

Sept-school time......28 kids extra everyday for lunch and they just happen to be in K and miss their parents now that is what I call fun. lets just say the month whizzes by with a blink of an eye. Megan quits cheer due to naughty girls who don't like to bend the rules. just like to break the rules and a coach who does not have a back bone/

Marisa starts high school goes threw the shakes of new friends, a boyfriend and new challenges in high school she plays golf for the first time and does well girls fight every morning about the car, clothes and life....

Oct- another birthday for Megan she turns 17 and seems bored with no cheer, homecoming 2 girls busy time, 24 come for dinner it all goes well.

nov- Joe birthday, thanksgiving, just chugging along in life. still fighting with co-workers daily I know they hate me.....still gray in my head.

Dec- surprise party for roo...fool her ha-ha. sad times Megan and Luke break up....a long painful 2 weeks. as I write this on dec 31 they are back together and working on getting things in order. spend time at home over the holiday.....just cant make my life what it should be. spending new years home with jj and Joe the girls all have plans sad I don't have a party to go to or something to do. most likely will spend the night at home with my guys watching the ball drop.oh yeah bf has cancer

I sometimes wonder if my lack of drinking makes it hard for me to host parties.....I wonder if my grayness scares people, why can't I be normal...maybe this is normal

so goals for the year are as follows:

condition and train and finish a tri-Thelon. make two new friends in new year. find a group of ladies to hang out with since I have zero right now. find a new couple to spend time with lose the gray that rides in my head making me blue all the frigging time........if you are still with me thanks if not I love you anyways. peace

another day in paradise

2007-08-14T10:32:00.000-04:00

well Aug 14Th one more day till i will be married for 20 years.....not only will i be going to the city fair but i will be going to a concert for Chris Doughtry. My children will be with me as well. can we say yee-ha. This will be like the 3 or 4 year we have been to the fair on the anniversary. I know you ladies are jealous i know you all wish you were married on Aug 15th so you too can have your life sucked out of you every year when a pop group comes to town and your kids scream...wow mom we have to go. this is the one year i have been well hot dog we dang dung got us a big star a-coming to the fair. Come on kids get your best britches on we are gonna return our cans and go to the fair.

Not to be rude but i never in my life have seen some many people who look like they have not showered, smoking, who need dental insurance and look like they are spending their rent money for the month. I mean where on earth do these people come from? scary...and i will be right with them. yee-ha.

camp

2007-07-26T07:57:00.000-04:00

my oldest m is off at camp. I miss her. Just this past year we have become very close. I really enjoy being with her and spending time with her. She will enter high school this year. She will drive soon. Life in all area's is so good.

Next week she will go to cheer camp with the mean girls. Cheer girls are so like the girls from mean girls. They tend to kick you when you are down and i think talk bad about each other. I only hope she makes some nice girls and is able to trust in the process and be able to find some people you trust.

Best wishes in the sunny state

2007-07-25T08:08:00.000-04:00

I always believe people come into your life for a season or a reason. Some will be short and sweet... and some long and painful lessons. Some friends are hard to shake and move on from. others you would never even think of being mean to or striking.

After moving from Sunny California to the gray state of Michigan I joined a church group which is and was the core of our friendships. We raised babies and sent them to school together and we went on play dates and swapped babysitting. Our children were all friends.

Then one day something changed. Our children started to get there own friends and we were on our own. We had to say would you like to go to lunch and it would be without my children. We as couples had to go threw not being invited to old friends party's and BBQ because we were no longer friends.

We had to find new friends and new memories. These new friends were fun and the life of the party. One day soemthing bad happened we had to support our new friends threw 3 years of unemployment and frustration. We had to watch our friends move to a sunny state and be sad we could not go. We had to say goodbye.

The one thing I still have is my core of friends here. The sad part is they have to start over. They have to go threw the fake friends. The ones who squeeze to tight. The people who latch on too quickly. The ones who you can not agree to disagree with. The people who think their opinion is the only right opinion.

They will have weed threw the friends to find the ones who they can trust who they can share their hearts with. Who they can show the battle scares too and not be ashamed. They have to trust in God and believe he will lead. Best wishes friends...it will never be the same but I thank God for the love he sent me everyday threw you. Peace

bff

2007-07-24T21:50:00.001-04:00

my bff moved today.....nothing more to say

binge or is it rules

2007-07-18T14:48:00.000-04:00

I just want to binge. I hate to diet it stinks...yeah yeah dieting stinks (sung to the tune of love stinks) to be honest I am not dieting I am just trying to learn to jog...(OK now get off the floor) and to eat healthy. I find when I am dieting or as i like to say eating right...I want to drink more. which proves the idea that people who are obese and get a lap band or stomach surgery sometimes turn to alcohol to cope.

I do believe I learned to binge eat when i was a child to cope with crap I was put threw. Lets just say my childhood was not horrible but it had its moments when my mother lost the interest of her children for her own gain into account.

My brother and I grew up and had no sort of rules...it was more like now come on if you do that again I going to punish you...now come on.....I turned out fine but realize giving your child No boundaries is not the greatest thing in life. My brother is a flippin mess and does not understand why everyone in the world picks on him including the popo.

As far as our relationship I have not talked to him in 2 years... we use him as a life lesson in our house...to my children "Do you want to be like Uncle"? well then shape up. I mean we all make mistakes I just believe you have to admit it ask to be forgiven, and try harder to change the behavior you had to start with...off to shower more all star baseball tonight. Will this season ever end???

2007-07-12T17:56:00.000-04:00

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wednesday Another day in the life of a sahm. During he school year i work 3 days per week less than 20 hours per week. My paycheck is small but the payoff i get to be with sweet kids and wonderful teachers at work who do care about me. well got interuppted by the phone and my life is crazy with a friend moving. i have to go....
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Sunday....went fro a walk with oldest M we planned to run but it is hotter than haitis so we walked came home with not one but two blisters and ringing wet. Yuck. Little J(son) and i went to near by city to get fitted for new running shoes but guess what they take sundays off. wtf.....i was a tad peeved so instead of coimming back next week i went to dunhams and bought a pair of running hsoes but guess what they (feet) still hurt and now i have blisters. I just can't cut a break. I did find shoes for J for school. He is so funny i have a rules on school clothes can't wear them until school starts. I know but dam he will have those choes muddy and dirty and just disgusting in a matter of hours so no new shoes until the first day which really sucks in the the gray state we start school after labor day. We have to be open to being a tourist and spending our money on our state...what a bunch of bull&*. Get them kids in school so we can go back to normal life I mean i can only stomach so much nickaloden per day. Yes world i am far from a perfact mother. Off to go eat some supper.
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Thursday

2007-07-12T17:38:00.000-04:00

Well found out yesterday i could not go to move my friend to north Carolina. i was so frigging bummed. My oldest will be at camp and hubby is going to Houston on business. So I have to be the responsible parent and stay home. I know F it is a bummer when you realize that you are growing up and having to say poop...life stinks.

J which is my son will play his first all star game tonight Yahoo. We play our friends team tonight so it will be tricky. I hope he holds his head high either way it is a tough win or lose. I hope i too can be gracious and say nice job or congrats sometimes the ugly green monster can show up.

We are planning a going away party for friends moving to NC see above. We have been having war with a dad who i shall call hummmmm a name for him all star coach so coach had a great idea to let kids age 12 plan party and guess what no moms helping or evening asking girl who leavings mom if he could. Then he also asked if they could keep it on the down low like not tell parents...my daughter came to me and told me because she knows this is code for "stranger danger" i mean you don't ask kids to keep big whopping secrets i mean come on. Ahhhhh all star coach needs to mind his own business wyob. off to the fields it may be standing room only crowd...

sunday

2007-07-08T19:01:00.000-04:00

Sunday....went fro a walk with oldest M we planned to run but it is hotter than haitis so we walked came home with not one but two blisters and ringing wet. Yuck.

Little J(son) and i went to near by city to get fitted for new running shoes but guess what they take sundays off. wtf.....i was a tad peeved so instead of coimming back next week i went to dunhams and bought a pair of running hsoes but guess what they (feet) still hurt and now i have blisters. I just can't cut a break.

I did find shoes for J for school. He is so funny i have a rules on school clothes can't wear them until school starts. I know but dam he will have those choes muddy and dirty and just disgusting in a matter of hours so no new shoes until the first day which really sucks in the the gray state we start school after labor day. We have to be open to being a tourist and spending our money on our state...what a bunch of bull&*. Get them kids in school so we can go back to normal life I mean i can only stomach so much nickaloden per day.

Yes world i am far from a perfact mother. Off to go eat some supper.

2007-07-07T11:34:00.000-04:00

Saturday

Dh and little J are out at baseball practice I know thrilling I am still in pj's. I watched the movie mean girls with my children oh my I would not go back to high school for a million dollars children are so mean. Life this summer has been fun. My children are old enough to make food, clean up and just need me for driving. Next summer oldest M will be close to driving can we say scary.

Our family is struggling with going to church lately. Being catholic we find it hard with sports and laziness to be able to make it on time. I went alone last week due to the fact I was sick of my families excuses which were tired, not right now and I need to shower? So I went alone and it was fantastic.

I did not have religion in my life growing up. I always though someone had to pray for me since God did not know who I was. I find it funny when my friends who do not attend church call me and ask me to pray like they can't. Like God only hears those who pay money and attend on Sunday.

I will say this I am far from perfect. Not even close to being a good christen I swear like a sailor and can gossip like a fend. But I feel God still wants me in his life. He still See's the good in me and wants me to do better to be better. I know for some Christians this will be hard to handle they will think I am a big sinner, but you know what I have done it both ways tried to be the clean, crisp church woman and the sailor mouth gossip queen and you know what I like my self better with all my flaws. I can sleep better knowing this is the true me. I am not trying to be a phony. OK off the soap box. peace

Friday

2007-07-06T21:24:00.000-04:00

Just went to pizza with the family. Dh has been snippy what else is new...he is always snippy. Can't figure out the twitter thing it is making me mad. ok going to go try to figure it out.

one year later

2007-07-06T18:35:00.000-04:00

Don't you hate when you find a blog then they never post again well me too...loser mom. Well glad to hear my happy pills work to make me happier. The girls and I just returned from cabo San as j likes to say we had a fantastic trip. Big j and little j stayed home since my hubby hates mexico. We had fun with out him. Life is good oldest m mad jv cheer at our high school. Little J is playing all star baseball and Middle M is getting ready for basketball. Got to love summer. My good friend will be moving in 3 weeks it makes me sad but i know i will see her in the future and the phone is never far away. I did twitter today kind of fun huh. i will try to link it. peace

Tuesday

2006-07-25T09:45:00.000-04:00

I just had my blood drawn for the DR. To finish off all the poking and prodding for the year. I hope it is all good news. I had a full work up for cholesterol. So now I am drinking a large expresso that tastes like crap. I Need the caffeine. The doctor upped my happy pills to see if it makes a difference. The kids had sleep overs last night and IM beat today can we say nap day today. I have to get a cast cover of sorts for Jordan for the wedding. So off to Joanne fabrics today. Big wedding is only 5 days off...I Can't wait.

Seems like only yesterday Courtney was babysitting for me. So scared and freaked out by the kids. I can't believe she is now getting married. I only hope they have a strong enough marriage to make it threw Rob's illness. Sending pryers to them today.

Monday and a Pap

2006-07-24T11:03:00.000-04:00

Went for my annual exam today. Nothing says Good Morning to you like a nice paper gown and another female touching you in a way that makes you want to scream. I hate having my exam. It is funny how we start to prep a week ahead. Hummm this body part needs an extra lotion. She might see my feet she may see them in the stirrups and think wow girls needs a pedi- we start to area wash areas that might need a extra glance like ears and such. Then of course we shave we shave and shave and shave like it is our wedding day. Don't want her to think I am unkept. If this is not bad enough I get to see my doctor on a regular basics she also goes to my child's school where I work. So I can't do the hey duck like we all do at the mall or grocery store. It is like hey Dr. How's it going......As I go geez the girl has seen more of me than my hubby has the last month. Nothing like talking school while she does a breast exam. Oh hey and could you up my zoloft just not feeling 100 percent yeah....And I can't wait to see your kids so I can spend quality time with her again this year. And so on and so on.

I know you are all jealous of my glamorous life. It is just so boring and sad. Off to take more zoloft maybe next week I will feel better.

Mongolian BBQ

2006-07-21T19:16:00.000-04:00

Went with the mosters to Mongolian bbq. We could say the boy child is picky child. He never eats much. So I was Doing a jig when boy child said he would go to BBQ. This was huge. So we went it was ok he made pasta dish with too much pepper it did look icky my food was very good.
So today I slept till 10 am I was so tired I woke up at 5 am and could not sleep. I watched monster inlaws on cable. It was funny got to love Jane Fonda. Dh is golfing with his father today. His dad lives 2 hours away yet we never see them. Long story for another day when I have more time. I got a shirt for the wedding next weekend. I need to south beach diet this next week. My tummy looks like bloated tire.

Day 2

2006-07-20T10:46:00.000-04:00

Today I slept till 9:30am.....I feel so good . I have been so tired lately. The girls had sleep overs last night. I hate sleepovers. The kids are watching a movie scary movie 3 right now it is well stupid. The love to perfect the dialog. Love my kids.

Today is my friends b-day. We are going out to lunch. I have been out to lunch 3 times this week. Panaera Bread co. And Chinese and today Damons.

This is by far the worst post where is the snap!

First post

2006-07-19T19:50:00.000-04:00

I have been a voyeur for many years reading others always staying back never wanting to jump in and test the waters. But today my friends I did it. I jumped...Splash it me.

So who am I I am a mother of 3 from the gray and crazy state of Michigan. We call it the mitten state if you look at your right hand and close your fingers you will see a mitten we are located in the middle of this gray and god forsaken place.

I live in a step-ford town that is really to good to be true. The crap that happens here is beyond belief. As I say only in m-land.

I grew up in sunny California for 24 years. I married dh in 87 we will be married for 19 years this August. We were high school sweet hearts. We have our goods days and bad days. Marriage is peaks and valleys. We are in a plain right now.

I have 3 children 2 girls and a boy. They are fun most days. Yet they make me cranky quite easy. I went back to work for my children school this years as a part time para-pro. I worked 7.5 hours per week last year this year I will be working 14-20 hours per week. I know wow wow wow. Don't burn out D.

So this is who I am I will post more tomorrow.