my oldest m is off at camp. I miss her. Just this past year we have become very close. I really enjoy being with her and spending time with her. She will enter high school this year. She will drive soon. Life in all area's is so good.
Next week she will go to cheer camp with the mean girls. Cheer girls are so like the girls from mean girls. They tend to kick you when you are down and i think talk bad about each other. I only hope she makes some nice girls and is able to trust in the process and be able to find some people you trust.
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Best wishes in the sunny state
I always believe people come into your life for a season or a reason. Some will be short and sweet... and some long and painful lessons. Some friends are hard to shake and move on from. others you would never even think of being mean to or striking.
After moving from Sunny California to the gray state of Michigan I joined a church group which is and was the core of our friendships. We raised babies and sent them to school together and we went on play dates and swapped babysitting. Our children were all friends.
Then one day something changed. Our children started to get there own friends and we were on our own. We had to say would you like to go to lunch and it would be without my children. We as couples had to go threw not being invited to old friends party's and BBQ because we were no longer friends.
We had to find new friends and new memories. These new friends were fun and the life of the party. One day soemthing bad happened we had to support our new friends threw 3 years of unemployment and frustration. We had to watch our friends move to a sunny state and be sad we could not go. We had to say goodbye.
The one thing I still have is my core of friends here. The sad part is they have to start over. They have to go threw the fake friends. The ones who squeeze to tight. The people who latch on too quickly. The ones who you can not agree to disagree with. The people who think their opinion is the only right opinion.
They will have weed threw the friends to find the ones who they can trust who they can share their hearts with. Who they can show the battle scares too and not be ashamed. They have to trust in God and believe he will lead. Best wishes friends...it will never be the same but I thank God for the love he sent me everyday threw you. Peace
After moving from Sunny California to the gray state of Michigan I joined a church group which is and was the core of our friendships. We raised babies and sent them to school together and we went on play dates and swapped babysitting. Our children were all friends.
Then one day something changed. Our children started to get there own friends and we were on our own. We had to say would you like to go to lunch and it would be without my children. We as couples had to go threw not being invited to old friends party's and BBQ because we were no longer friends.
We had to find new friends and new memories. These new friends were fun and the life of the party. One day soemthing bad happened we had to support our new friends threw 3 years of unemployment and frustration. We had to watch our friends move to a sunny state and be sad we could not go. We had to say goodbye.
The one thing I still have is my core of friends here. The sad part is they have to start over. They have to go threw the fake friends. The ones who squeeze to tight. The people who latch on too quickly. The ones who you can not agree to disagree with. The people who think their opinion is the only right opinion.
They will have weed threw the friends to find the ones who they can trust who they can share their hearts with. Who they can show the battle scares too and not be ashamed. They have to trust in God and believe he will lead. Best wishes friends...it will never be the same but I thank God for the love he sent me everyday threw you. Peace
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
binge or is it rules
I just want to binge. I hate to diet it stinks...yeah yeah dieting stinks (sung to the tune of love stinks) to be honest I am not dieting I am just trying to learn to jog...(OK now get off the floor) and to eat healthy. I find when I am dieting or as i like to say eating right...I want to drink more. which proves the idea that people who are obese and get a lap band or stomach surgery sometimes turn to alcohol to cope.
I do believe I learned to binge eat when i was a child to cope with crap I was put threw. Lets just say my childhood was not horrible but it had its moments when my mother lost the interest of her children for her own gain into account.
My brother and I grew up and had no sort of rules...it was more like now come on if you do that again I going to punish you...now come on.....I turned out fine but realize giving your child No boundaries is not the greatest thing in life. My brother is a flippin mess and does not understand why everyone in the world picks on him including the popo.
As far as our relationship I have not talked to him in 2 years... we use him as a life lesson in our house...to my children "Do you want to be like Uncle"? well then shape up. I mean we all make mistakes I just believe you have to admit it ask to be forgiven, and try harder to change the behavior you had to start with...off to shower more all star baseball tonight. Will this season ever end???
I do believe I learned to binge eat when i was a child to cope with crap I was put threw. Lets just say my childhood was not horrible but it had its moments when my mother lost the interest of her children for her own gain into account.
My brother and I grew up and had no sort of rules...it was more like now come on if you do that again I going to punish you...now come on.....I turned out fine but realize giving your child No boundaries is not the greatest thing in life. My brother is a flippin mess and does not understand why everyone in the world picks on him including the popo.
As far as our relationship I have not talked to him in 2 years... we use him as a life lesson in our house...to my children "Do you want to be like Uncle"? well then shape up. I mean we all make mistakes I just believe you have to admit it ask to be forgiven, and try harder to change the behavior you had to start with...off to shower more all star baseball tonight. Will this season ever end???
Thursday, July 12, 2007
wednesday old posts
wednesday Another day in the life of a sahm. During he school year i work 3 days per week less than 20 hours per week. My paycheck is small but the payoff i get to be with sweet kids and wonderful teachers at work who do care about me. well got interuppted by the phone and my life is crazy with a friend moving. i have to go....
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Sunday....went fro a walk with oldest M we planned to run but it is hotter than haitis so we walked came home with not one but two blisters and ringing wet. Yuck. Little J(son) and i went to near by city to get fitted for new running shoes but guess what they take sundays off. wtf.....i was a tad peeved so instead of coimming back next week i went to dunhams and bought a pair of running hsoes but guess what they (feet) still hurt and now i have blisters. I just can't cut a break. I did find shoes for J for school. He is so funny i have a rules on school clothes can't wear them until school starts. I know but dam he will have those choes muddy and dirty and just disgusting in a matter of hours so no new shoes until the first day which really sucks in the the gray state we start school after labor day. We have to be open to being a tourist and spending our money on our state...what a bunch of bull&*. Get them kids in school so we can go back to normal life I mean i can only stomach so much nickaloden per day. Yes world i am far from a perfact mother. Off to go eat some supper.
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wednesday Another day in the life of a sahm. During he school year i work 3 days per week less than 20 hours per week. My paycheck is small but the payoff i get to be with sweet kids and wonderful teachers at work who do care about me. well got interuppted by the phone and my life is crazy with a friend moving. i have to go....
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Sunday....went fro a walk with oldest M we planned... old posts
Sunday....went fro a walk with oldest M we planned to run but it is hotter than haitis so we walked came home with not one but two blisters and ringing wet. Yuck. Little J(son) and i went to near by city to get fitted for new running shoes but guess what they take sundays off. wtf.....i was a tad peeved so instead of coimming back next week i went to dunhams and bought a pair of running hsoes but guess what they (feet) still hurt and now i have blisters. I just can't cut a break. I did find shoes for J for school. He is so funny i have a rules on school clothes can't wear them until school starts. I know but dam he will have those choes muddy and dirty and just disgusting in a matter of hours so no new shoes until the first day which really sucks in the the gray state we start school after labor day. We have to be open to being a tourist and spending our money on our state...what a bunch of bull&*. Get them kids in school so we can go back to normal life I mean i can only stomach so much nickaloden per day. Yes world i am far from a perfact mother. Off to go eat some supper.
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Thursday
Well found out yesterday i could not go to move my friend to north Carolina. i was so frigging bummed. My oldest will be at camp and hubby is going to Houston on business. So I have to be the responsible parent and stay home. I know F it is a bummer when you realize that you are growing up and having to say poop...life stinks.
J which is my son will play his first all star game tonight Yahoo. We play our friends team tonight so it will be tricky. I hope he holds his head high either way it is a tough win or lose. I hope i too can be gracious and say nice job or congrats sometimes the ugly green monster can show up.
We are planning a going away party for friends moving to NC see above. We have been having war with a dad who i shall call hummmmm a name for him all star coach so coach had a great idea to let kids age 12 plan party and guess what no moms helping or evening asking girl who leavings mom if he could. Then he also asked if they could keep it on the down low like not tell parents...my daughter came to me and told me because she knows this is code for "stranger danger" i mean you don't ask kids to keep big whopping secrets i mean come on. Ahhhhh all star coach needs to mind his own business wyob. off to the fields it may be standing room only crowd...
J which is my son will play his first all star game tonight Yahoo. We play our friends team tonight so it will be tricky. I hope he holds his head high either way it is a tough win or lose. I hope i too can be gracious and say nice job or congrats sometimes the ugly green monster can show up.
We are planning a going away party for friends moving to NC see above. We have been having war with a dad who i shall call hummmmm a name for him all star coach so coach had a great idea to let kids age 12 plan party and guess what no moms helping or evening asking girl who leavings mom if he could. Then he also asked if they could keep it on the down low like not tell parents...my daughter came to me and told me because she knows this is code for "stranger danger" i mean you don't ask kids to keep big whopping secrets i mean come on. Ahhhhh all star coach needs to mind his own business wyob. off to the fields it may be standing room only crowd...
Sunday, July 08, 2007
sunday
Sunday....went fro a walk with oldest M we planned to run but it is hotter than haitis so we walked came home with not one but two blisters and ringing wet. Yuck.
Little J(son) and i went to near by city to get fitted for new running shoes but guess what they take sundays off. wtf.....i was a tad peeved so instead of coimming back next week i went to dunhams and bought a pair of running hsoes but guess what they (feet) still hurt and now i have blisters. I just can't cut a break.
I did find shoes for J for school. He is so funny i have a rules on school clothes can't wear them until school starts. I know but dam he will have those choes muddy and dirty and just disgusting in a matter of hours so no new shoes until the first day which really sucks in the the gray state we start school after labor day. We have to be open to being a tourist and spending our money on our state...what a bunch of bull&*. Get them kids in school so we can go back to normal life I mean i can only stomach so much nickaloden per day.
Yes world i am far from a perfact mother. Off to go eat some supper.
Little J(son) and i went to near by city to get fitted for new running shoes but guess what they take sundays off. wtf.....i was a tad peeved so instead of coimming back next week i went to dunhams and bought a pair of running hsoes but guess what they (feet) still hurt and now i have blisters. I just can't cut a break.
I did find shoes for J for school. He is so funny i have a rules on school clothes can't wear them until school starts. I know but dam he will have those choes muddy and dirty and just disgusting in a matter of hours so no new shoes until the first day which really sucks in the the gray state we start school after labor day. We have to be open to being a tourist and spending our money on our state...what a bunch of bull&*. Get them kids in school so we can go back to normal life I mean i can only stomach so much nickaloden per day.
Yes world i am far from a perfact mother. Off to go eat some supper.
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Saturday
Dh and little J are out at baseball practice I know thrilling I am still in pj's. I watched the movie mean girls with my children oh my I would not go back to high school for a million dollars children are so mean. Life this summer has been fun. My children are old enough to make food, clean up and just need me for driving. Next summer oldest M will be close to driving can we say scary.
Our family is struggling with going to church lately. Being catholic we find it hard with sports and laziness to be able to make it on time. I went alone last week due to the fact I was sick of my families excuses which were tired, not right now and I need to shower? So I went alone and it was fantastic.
I did not have religion in my life growing up. I always though someone had to pray for me since God did not know who I was. I find it funny when my friends who do not attend church call me and ask me to pray like they can't. Like God only hears those who pay money and attend on Sunday.
I will say this I am far from perfect. Not even close to being a good christen I swear like a sailor and can gossip like a fend. But I feel God still wants me in his life. He still See's the good in me and wants me to do better to be better. I know for some Christians this will be hard to handle they will think I am a big sinner, but you know what I have done it both ways tried to be the clean, crisp church woman and the sailor mouth gossip queen and you know what I like my self better with all my flaws. I can sleep better knowing this is the true me. I am not trying to be a phony. OK off the soap box. peace
Dh and little J are out at baseball practice I know thrilling I am still in pj's. I watched the movie mean girls with my children oh my I would not go back to high school for a million dollars children are so mean. Life this summer has been fun. My children are old enough to make food, clean up and just need me for driving. Next summer oldest M will be close to driving can we say scary.
Our family is struggling with going to church lately. Being catholic we find it hard with sports and laziness to be able to make it on time. I went alone last week due to the fact I was sick of my families excuses which were tired, not right now and I need to shower? So I went alone and it was fantastic.
I did not have religion in my life growing up. I always though someone had to pray for me since God did not know who I was. I find it funny when my friends who do not attend church call me and ask me to pray like they can't. Like God only hears those who pay money and attend on Sunday.
I will say this I am far from perfect. Not even close to being a good christen I swear like a sailor and can gossip like a fend. But I feel God still wants me in his life. He still See's the good in me and wants me to do better to be better. I know for some Christians this will be hard to handle they will think I am a big sinner, but you know what I have done it both ways tried to be the clean, crisp church woman and the sailor mouth gossip queen and you know what I like my self better with all my flaws. I can sleep better knowing this is the true me. I am not trying to be a phony. OK off the soap box. peace
Friday, July 06, 2007
Friday
Just went to pizza with the family. Dh has been snippy what else is new...he is always snippy. Can't figure out the twitter thing it is making me mad. ok going to go try to figure it out.
one year later
Don't you hate when you find a blog then they never post again well me too...loser mom. Well glad to hear my happy pills work to make me happier. The girls and I just returned from cabo San as j likes to say we had a fantastic trip. Big j and little j stayed home since my hubby hates mexico. We had fun with out him. Life is good oldest m mad jv cheer at our high school. Little J is playing all star baseball and Middle M is getting ready for basketball. Got to love summer. My good friend will be moving in 3 weeks it makes me sad but i know i will see her in the future and the phone is never far away. I did twitter today kind of fun huh. i will try to link it. peace
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